Bom dia!

Hoje acordei com uma alegria invulgar...
Apesar me ter deitado tarde, perto das 6am, ou cedo depende do ponto de vista :)
Acordei por volta das 7.30am...
Resolvi lavar a loiça do jantar, limpar a cozinha, enfim dar uma geral na cozinha...
Fazer a "fachina" às 7.30am nunca foi um sonho, mas devo confessar que me soube bem!
Fez-me sentir bem comigo próprio poder sair de casa e esta ficar minimamente decente, não que vá receber visitas, pois são raras as pessoas que lá entram sem ser eu, é claro!
Mas soube bem!
Depois de ter dado uma de Zulmira, vim até Cascais (onde me encontro agora) fazer a inscrição no centro de emprego, pois neste momento estou desempregado...
Chegado a Cascais, resolvi fazer o que toda a gente faz, estancionar o carro no parque do Jumbo, pois as 3 primeiras horas são grátis!!! :) (Grátis essa palavra mágica!!!)
Dirigi-me ao centro de emprego e nem esperei 20 minutos e fui atendido!!!
"Um milagre!" pensei eu, "Os deuses estão a favorecer-me!"
Mas não, o que acontecia é que como estavam sem sistema informático, não podiam fazer nada então chamavam as pessoas e informavam-nas de tal facto, menos mal, pois fiquei a saber que ainda não me posso inscrever, pois o meu contrato só termina dia 3/10...
Logo só dia 4/10 é que posso tratar de tudo...
Ok! Pelo menos já sei o que tenho que fazer...
Lembrei-me então, em vez de ir para casa e ficar por lá a vegetar em frente ao computador e como tenho 3h de parque gratuito (adoro esta palavra grátis! ser pobre é fu mesmo!!!) como eu ia dizendo, lembrei-me de ir tomar o pequeno-almoço no café que existe no mesmo por cima do Jumbo (e passando a publicidade tem uns queques que são de comer e chorar por mais...) e que tem uma linda vista sobre a Baia de Cascais (agora não tão bonita desde que construiram a marina perdeu um pouco da sua beleza...), mas que mesmo assim ainda é bonita... (Como podem ver na foto em anexo)
É pena não ter aqui comigo quem eu gostaria para partilhar este momento zen, mas também isso seria pedir muito...
Enfim, um começo de dia auspicioso...
Esperemos que o resto do dia também corra bem...

Hoje vi-te...

Hoje vi-te e quis fugir, mas não podia...
Hoje cheirei de novo o teu cheiro... hummm... nunca o esqueci....
Mas quero e não consigo!!!
Hoje toquei-te....
Um toque horrivel que só me fez lembrar o passado...
Mas a tua pele continua maravilhosa e sedosa como sempre...
Já tinha saudades de te pegar na mão, de te tocar, de te cheirar...
Ai! O teu cheiro...
Sempre me deu cado da cabeça e me fez perder o controlo...
Mas isso não pode acontecer!!!


Sim, evito-te!
Evito-te porque te amo!
Evito-te porque quero-te e não te posso ter!
Evito-te porque fazes despertar o que quero matar!
O Amor que sinto por ti!
Sim, ainda te amo!
Até pareces que não sabes...


Mas adorei poder estar contigo hoje...
Parecia...
Lá estou eu outra vez a lembrar-me do passado...
Não parecia nada!


Foi horrivel!
Nunca devia ter ido ter contigo!
Sim estou a mentir e depois?
Tenho que mentir para poder ocultar o que sinto por ti!!!
Mas ficas a saber, que ao fim de tanto tempo, ainda te amo!
Que estupido sou!
Que estupido....


 

O meu Pai...

Se fosse vivo faria hoje 59 anos...
O meu Pai...
Desculpa não ter sido o filho que gostarias que fosse...
Desculpa não te ter dito mais vezes "Amo-te Pai"...
Desculpa não ter conseguido fazer nada para que não morresses como morres-te...
Mas quero que saibas que nunca te esqueci e nunca o irei fazer...
Estarás sempre no meu coração e no meu pensamento!

Amo-te Pai!

Até um dia...

She Wants Revenge - I Don't Want To Fall In Love

I would like to tell you, I would like to say
That I knew that this would happen
That things would go this way
But I cannot deceive you, this was never planned
I know that you're the right girl but do you think that I am the right man?

1...2...3...4,5,6,7,
Right face wrong time, she's sweet
(But I don't wanna fall in love)
Too late, so deep, better run cause
(but I don't wanna fall in love)
Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight
( I don't wanna)

You say it's not a problem, You say it's meant to be
But love is not an option, our love is never free
And things are not so easy, so cold and we've been burned
I know that I'll have regrets but that's the price of one more lesson learned

1..2..3...4,5,6,7,
Right face wrong time, she's sweet
(But I don't wanna fall in love)
Too late, so deep, better run cause
(but I don't wanna fall in love)
Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight
( I don't wanna)

Right face wrong time, she's sweet
(But I don't wanna fall in love)
Too late, so deep, better run cause
( I don't wanna fall in love)
Right face wrong time, she's sweet
(But I don't wanna fall in love)
Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight
( I don't wanna fall in love)
Right face wrong time, she's sweet
(But I don't wanna fall in love)
Too late, so deep, better run cause
( I don't wanna fall in love)
Right face wrong time, she's sweet
(But I don't wanna fall in love)
Can't sleep, can't eat, can't think straight
( I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna)


Well now it's to late for that...
Kisses,
AlmaMater

Ornatos Violeta - Chaga

Foi como entrar
Foi como arder
Para ti nem foi viver
Foi mudar o mundo
Sem pensar em mim
Mas o tempo até passou
E és o que ele me ensinou
Uma chaga pra lembrar que há um fim

Diz sem querer poupar meu corpo
Eu já não sei quem te abraçou
Diz que eu não senti teu corpo sobre o meu
Quando eu cair
Eu espero ao menos que olhes para trás
Diz que não te afastas de algo que é também teu
Não vai haver um novo amor
Tão capaz e tão maior
Para mim será melhor assim
Vê como eu quero
E vou tentar
Sem matar o nosso amor
Não achar que o mundo é feito para nós

Foi como entrar
Foi como arder
Para ti nem foi viver
Foi mudar o mundo
Sem pensar em mim
Mas o tempo até passou
E és o que ele me ensinou
Uma chaga pra lembrar que há um fim

Ornatos Violeta - Ouvi Dizer

Ouvi dizer que o nosso amor acabou.
Pois eu não tive a noção do seu fim!
Pelo que eu já tentei,
Eu não vou vê-lo em mim:
Se eu não tive a noção de ver nascer um homem.
E ao que eu vejo,
Tudo foi para ti
Uma estúpida canção que só eu ouvi!
E eu fiquei com tanto para dar!
E agora
Não vais achar nada bem
Que eu pague a conta em raiva!

E pudesse eu pagar de outra forma!

Ouvi dizer que o mundo acaba amanhã,
E eu tinha tantos planos pra depois!
Fui eu quem virou as páginas
Na pressa de chegar até nós;
Sem tirar das palavras seu cruel sentido!
Sobre a razão estar cega:
Resta-me apenas uma razão,
Um dia vais ser tu
E um homem como tu;
Como eu não fui;
Um dia vou-te ouvir dizer:

E pudesse eu pagar de outra forma!
Sei que um dia vais dizer:
E pudesse eu pagar de outra forma!

A cidade está deserta,
E alguém escreveu o teu nome em toda a parte:
Nas casas, nos carros, nas pontes, nas ruas.
Em todo o lado essa palavra
Repetida ao expoente da loucura!
Ora amarga! ora doce!
Pra nos lembrar que o amor é uma doença,
Quando nele julgamos ver a nossa cura!

Light...

Walking alone in the dark, I wait for a light to appears...
But noghting happens!!!
Only the same bullshit...
But still I wait...
Laying and waiting in the floor full of blood...
I wait...

Os 31 anos da Playboy

Parabéns!
AlmaMater

Tindersticks - Can we start again? (Demo)

So many times
I said that I love the
Looking over my shoulder at the door
So many times
I can't live without her
The wheel kept turning round
My feeling's changed
I went my own way
What can I say
To make you stay?

But in my dreams
They smother all over me
And I'm trying to explain
So many arms
Reach from my memories
Pull all at once
I'm lost amongst
The folds in their skin
I did you wrong
But I'm sorry now
And I'll show you how

If you were here now
You couldn't change
you wouldn't understand
but I'm ready now I'm ready now
I'll make you proud I was your man
and sing a song
but it's so ugly now
and I'll show you how

cos I'm ready now
I'm ready now
I'm ready now
I'm ready now
Hey I'm ready now

Can we start again?
so many times I said that I loved them
I'm ready now
but I'm ready now
Can we start again?
so many times
I can't live without her
The years was more than I could bear
It's turning round

But in my dreams Can we start again?
They smother all over me I'm ready now
And I'm trying to explain Can we start again?

So many arms reach from my memory
The wheels kept turning round


So?
Can we?

Love,
AlmaMater

Tindersticks - A Marriage Made In Heaven

She fell in love with my singing
She knew the bells started ringing
She thought there was only her there
But, me, I just live for the clapping
A hand delivery of an invite to my premiere
When he fell in love, I was acting
I sent her flowers, asked her to marry me
But all I heard was their clapping
Now she cries with a cigarrette at the window
He croons and moans like he's hurting
She cries so well
He croons and moans, just croons and moans
Now, I never thought [I had no idea] she needed direction
And he was at the mercy of his writers
For the songs I needed [for me] to touch her
Those sad, sad songs to make me happy
Now she cries with a cigarrette at the window
He croons and moans like he's hurting
She cries so well
He croons and moans, just croons and moans
We re-enact the love scenes from her/my movies
But I never thought, but she uses a stand-in
His voice is croakier every day now
And she cries so well

Joy Division - She´s Lost Control

Confusion in her eyes that says it all, she's lost control
And she's clinging to the nearest passer by, she's lost control
And she gave away the secrets of her past and said I've lost control again
And of a voice that told her when and where to act
She said I've lost control again

And she turned to me and took me by the hand and said
I've lost control again
And how I'll never know just why or understand she said
I've lost control again

And she screamed out, kicking on her side and said
I've lost control again
And seized up on the floor, I thought she'd die
She said I've lost control
She's lost control again, she's lost control

Well I had to phone her friend to state her case and say
she's lost control again
And she showed up all the errors and mistakes and said
I've lost control again

But she expressed herself in many different ways until
she lost control again
And walked upon the edge of no escape and laughed I've lost control

She's lost control again, she's lost control

I could live a little better with the myths and the lies
When the darkness broke in, I just broke down and cried

I could live a little in a wider line

When the change is gone, when the urge is gone

To lose control

When here we come

Joy Division - You're No Good For Me

Don't know what I'm doing - don't know where I'm going
Leading me to ruin - I should have traded you in
Yeah you think you're something but you're no good for me

Don't know if I care - don't know if I'm there
I just sit and stare - making love to thin air
Yeah you're being insulted but you're no good for me
Na na na na na na na na no good --

I do lots of good - surprised at what you would
Don't call me no crud - I really think I'm good
Yeah you think you're something but you're no good for me

Try to call the tune - I'll probably go and rue it
I'll just get it groomed - all sorts of other clues
Yeah you're being insulted but you're no good for me

I get by the local peer group and their pressures
I can wash the dishes - my soups can taste delicious
Yeah you think you're something but you're no good for me

I've forgotten how you feel - to me you're looking real
Come on let's make a deal - think of where you live
Yeah you think you're something but you're no good for me
Na na na na na na na na no good --

I've forgotten how you feel - to me you're looking real
Come on let's make a deal - think of what you need
Yeah you're being insulted but you're no good for me
Yeah you're being insulted but you're no good for me

Joy Division - Atmosphere

Walk in silence,
Don't walk away, in silence.
See the danger,
Always danger,
Endless talking,
Life rebuilding,
Don't walk away.

Walk in silence,
Don't turn away, in silence.
Your confusion,
My illusion,
Worn like a mask of self-hate,
Confronts and then dies.
Don't walk away.

People like you find it easy,
Naked to see,
Walking on air.
Hunting by the rivers,
Through the streets,
Every corner abandoned too soon,
Set down with due care.
Don't walk away in silence,
Don't walk away.

Heart - What About Love?

I've been lonely
I've been waiting for you
I'm pretending
And that's all I can do
The love I'm sending
Ain't making it
Through to your heart

You've been hiding
Never letting it show
Always trying
To keep it under control
You got it down and you're well
On the way to the top
But there's something that you forgot

What about love?
Don't you want someone
To care about you?
What about love?
Don't let it slip away
What about love?
I only want to share it with you
You might need it someday

I can't tell you
What you're feeling inside
I can't sell you
What you don't want to buy
Something's missing
And you got to look back on your life
You know something
Here just ain't right

Gnarls Barkley - Crazy

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Possibly

And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control

Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me

My heroes had the heart to lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little, ever since I was little it looked like fun
And it's no coincidence since I've come
And I can die when I'm done

Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably